You know, this week has been a horrible one. Like seriously. Its jam-packed with things going on in my life and nothing could stop anything from happening. It was like as if, everything was pre-destined.
School being a school, things of course, take place every now and then, so there’s nothing worth talking about. Weather had been quite wet recently, and I kinda hate it because I love to stay home on rainy days. Wet streets? Bluk! I hate walking on them, with every cautious step I take, eventually, water will still splash on my legs and its disgusting :/ But Singapore being Singapore, monsoon season is still monsoon season. At least its better than a hot 34degree celsius weather.
There was something that took place on Wednesday that managed to bug me for 2 days. Note*, I had a presentation today, so by right, I shld be busy doing and preparing for it on wed and thu, but….things always turn out the way we least expected, don’t they?
I shan’t go into details, because its really considered part of her privacy and I’m not inconsiderate like other bloggers. But as to briefly explained what happened, it started out with me being a kaypo, talking to a gf of mine, about what my FYP supervisor told me with regards to education. Apparently, me and her shared different views, and this difference snowballed to pull the drifting distance between us even wider. Then it implicates her bf into the picture, and yes, you’ve got it, everything explodes.
So that was it, she made a decision, one that I’m extremely disappointed with and Note*, I’m not angry, it was sort-of, complex feeling which I can’t put across with words. Try imagining a mixture of being pissed, and frustrated, and vexed, and disappointed. That was something I went through when she made the decision.
I’m not going to try complicating matters here, but I do hope if she still reads this blog, apparently she cared, so why act as if she doesn’t? I do admit I’m not an ideal friend at any point of time, I’m harsh, hot-tempered, impulsive, naggy, long-winded, with very low EQ and high sensitivity. But what brought us together was fate and destiny, and because of someone, someone who doesn’t see the good in her, someone who is unappreciative, someone who is everything to her but perhaps doesn’t treat her as his everything, she’s giving this fate and destiny up.
From the start, I’ve never been exactly supportive, neither have I been persuasive. But I’m using my last efforts to knock some senses into her, to wake up to see whats going on, if someone is such a fantastic person, why none of us are supportive? Why are we stopping, and why are we against it? If someone is so amazing, then why is it that she would always be hurt by him, and ends up breaking down?
I’m so confused of what I should do, it is as if, I’m stuck in a dilemma not being able to find a way out. This is my final resort, wake up to your senses, and we would still love you.
Presentation today sucked. BIG time. The panel judges asked stuffs that can’t be explained, and even though we tried out best to answer, I don’t think they looked convinced 
But heck it, we can only take a few days break (Not even a week!) and then the work starts all over again…. 
Lagging behind studies, trying my best to understand the concepts, and apparently, trying to pull up my GPA. I want to show some results, to prove that I’m really determined, and I will make sure that I score well if I am given the chance to go overseas. I don’t want to be in SIM (super-commercialised)……….or lead a life like some stupid pretentious bitch.
Anddddd, I need to earn some SAVINGS!
Not sure what have gotten into you recently, somehow every time when I’m speaking to you, you always seemed to be pre-occupied with some stuffs mentally/physically…(for eg, this evening aft my presentation
Being nice doesn’t mean people would be nice back to you, and no matter how hard you try, there will still be people in the world hating you, so don’t try to satisfy others, satisfy yourself (♥^.^♥)
